God versus God

God versus God                                                                                              
 
There’s no battle being waged,
though I feel deeply wounded;
 
the overturned landscape blackened,
littered with dead hopes, lost campaigns.
 
In this hollow I find myself
so small, lost and powerless,
 
knowing not what the reasons are
for fighting anymore
 
nor who is the opposition.
As I wander in search of someone
 
to accept my sword and surrender,
I feel more like a battlefield than a soldier
 
though there is no war being waged,
no opposing armies, only God versus God.
 
O child, even your disillusionment
is a precious gift from the Father.