Try to try
Two ways to love God, You say --
own nothing, including yourself
or, live in the world, putting everyone else
ahead of you in the queue.
That lets me out -- no way for me
to love God. Not this lifetime.
Eruch said, try to try. Try to try.
That's my this time lifetime -- try to try, try to try.
Splendidly flawed, perfectly dear
near ones ecstatically drawing tears
from my world-weary eyes; try to try, try to try.
Sparks of pleasure, joy may animate me
now and then but nothing can rekindle
the fire in these sodden ashes.
Try to try, try to try. The thorn in the kiss --
ubiquitous Shiva -- time like water,
washing away, washing away
the smooth, black slate, running through my fingers.
Try to try, try to try. Eternal soul in mortal breast,
doubting everything but the dilemma
and You say the dilemma is illusion.
Try to try, try to try. To love God, try to try.
O child of God, your sword is made of fire.
Lay it at the feet of the Master.