Saturday, November 24, 2012

Too much like death



Too much like death                                                                        

You lived in silence.  I can’t abide it. 
Too much like death.  Even while

lying motionless and mute in the casket
You’ve so lovingly fashioned for me,

my mind is stubbornly shouting blasphemies,
roaming the known parameters.

I climbed in willingly enough. 
Made myself comfortable. 

I don’t regret it.
But, this protracted interment –  

is as stylized and boring
as any funeral ever was

and still I haven’t the courage
to clamp down the lid long enough

for You to sink the nails. 
You came not to teach but to awaken.

Lucky for me – because I never seem to learn.
And, instead of holding on to Your damaan –

being dragged pell-mell into the Infinite-Eternal,
I hold tightly to the ragged shirttail

of this wanton, roaring world; the sad
and flustered illusion of my false self.

O child of God, hold your tongue and let
Meher’s silence become your last triumphant shout.

                             (Unpublished)

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