Neti, neti goes the Gita;
not this, not this.
Try it after each phrase
in the Prayer of Repentance,
neti, neti - not what I expected, Lord -
not this; not what I meant to say;
it wasn't what I lacked after all;
it blew up in my face, Lord;
neti, neti - not what I'd hoped for;
lost now - slipped away;
not this, not this, Lord, not this -
not what I wanted;
not what's in my heart;
not at all what I'd envisioned.
Neti, neti; neti, neti -
the clock is ticking away
the moments of choice, attachment and hope;
the constant failures we speak of -
being fooled again and again
by illusions self-created
through our ignorance and limitations.
O child of God, to repent of our failures is to list
the illusions we fall for moment to moment.