Thursday, March 29, 2012

Lost trains

Lost trains                                                                                         

The beekeeper moves the queen;
the other bees circle, swarm, cleave and cling.

Just so, o child, attach your thoughts to the Master
with great and exclusive fervor
         
until all scattered whims, loose ends,
doubts and desires, all lost trains,

projections, slips and lapses, all indulgent               
vagaries and presumptive notions

cluster, coalesce and adhere
to the one true purpose of your existence –

service and allegiance to your Lord –
toiling on His behalf,

striking the spike’s head every moment, 
again and again and again,

deeply driven and authentic.  O child! 
Such a clear-headed, harmonious

and vital industry from you
will offer this vapid world 

an unparalleled sweetness --
untainted, lucent and gloriously rich.

O child of God, in their turbulent stream, which thoughts
are more valuable than thoughts of God?

                          

Singular Majesty

Singular majesty                                                                                   

Only the naked may enter Your Sea. 
These tattered clothes, soiled

from my grandparent’s grave,
a mother’s tears, father’s sweat,

from my rough-housing brothers, lover’s
bodily fluids, the birth blood of my sons –

how shall I drop them at Your shore?
They’ve grown into my skin.

They’ll have to be cut from my body. 
Allow me to suffer these stained rags
hugged close to my chest,

not to hide my nakedness,
but to mark its wondrous beginnings

as I enter the singular majesty
of Your ancient, depthless Sea.

O child of God, imperfect love is Love Divine –
not to be surrendered but transfigured.

                     (from A Jewel in the Dust)

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Song link -- I'm not the man



build a wall around myself let nobody through   
by the gift and debt of love      remain unaffected
thank God for the loneliness               that leads to You

C                        Gm                    F                     C
low desires and deep regrets   in a constant turning
my mistress was the world   she proved to be untrue
through corruption and deceit  I saw Your pure flame burning
thank God for the sinfulness      that leads to You                           

Chorus:
Gm              F            C                                                     Gm
I’m not the man that I used to be (1)  since You gave Your love to me
 (2) since You shed Your grace on me
F                             C                       
I don’t know who I am
Gm              F            C                                            Gm
(1) Finding myself is the mystery   take what You require of me
(2) Finding myself is my destiny
F                     C

C                       Gm          F                                       C
take what Your require of me          show me who I am   (repeat at the end)


C                        Gm                F                              C
living in Your aftermath          feel like a dead man walking
burned in the fires of love     all I thought was true
through the ashes and the grief   I hear Your true calling
thank God for the hurt and ruin    that leads to You
   I'm not the man